Thank you all for your support, I can't answer everyone, too down, but appreciate every word you all wrote ...

On the 24th of April 2014 a beautiful baby boy was born, with a smile on his face.
Neron, born on Ian's birthday ... it was a sign! He had to be mine ... you couldn't keep up my pace.
He came into our pack, a lovely chap,
a good swimmer at the age of 12 weeks!
Later he had some bad luck, called FCE.
Together we worked on it, we could beat this. This Monday though it hit him again.
He was paralysed and in distress.
Today he crossed the Rainbow Bridge, peacefully no more pain.
Cause he didn't deserve that, this boy of mine.
He had a Golden heart, a Golden colour and a Golden smile.
I feel my heart exploded imploded into many pieces, nothing left, no breath.
Losing part of my own hurts, breaks me, I'll never be the same. 
Neron please stay a happy boy with Indy, Finn and so many others.
Always loved you pretty boy, mama's baby and never ever forgotten, you will be.

Sorry can't find the words, the tribute Neron deserves.
I'm heart broken.
Neron passed the Rainbow Bridge at 14.30 today, the 27th of July 2018.